A way that I let go tonight was with a balloon tonight, my friends and I went out tonight, and we got a balloon from Red Robin. Well we said that we would let the balloon go together, but all I can say is that letting that balloon go ment a lot to me! We all said we will let this go to the summer of 2009. Well that is true, but I was letting that balloon to the hurt that I have been through, it was a way of me letting go, I know it was hard for me, but I think it is time for me to let go. I am not going to win this at all! I sent all my feeling with that blue balloon, but you know it was hard letting go, because it is something new to me. It was hard to just sit there and think I have been through so much this last week am I ready to let them go, is it worth letting go, or should there be some kind of understanding that I need to find before I give up! But you know I let it all go, now is my heart ready to let it go? I take back that I sent all my feelings with that balloon I really wish I did, because I am not sure if I really did. I just hope that I am able to get over this faster now, I kind of feel as if that the hard part has been done now it is time for me to just slowly let everything go and keep moving on with life. I know that I have been through this 3times but you what, I am just waiting for 4 and I hope that 4 will not end like 3, 2 or 1!
So to that Blue Red Robin Balloon that has my every painful feeling, I hope that you will not return I hope that I will be able to let you go! Even now I can tell it is hard because it is just hard to even type this, because all those WHAT IFs are coming back, but you know I am going to try to fight it this time! Next time I am not sure how strong I will be able to be! I am just kind of lost!
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