NOTHING AT ALL!

Nothing is falling into place!

Ya know I don't understand Life! I guess i am not ment to understand life, but that is ok. I just want things to fall into place, and I know I cannot make them fall into place, I can do all I want to try but if it does not fall into place there is nothing i can do! I am just at a point in the road where there is nothing i can do there is no road to turn on. It is at a dead end completely! I don't understand what I am doing wrong at all! I am trying my hardest to understand what God has for me in His plan, I am trying my best to do what is right. I am trying my hardest to find the good in this right now! God I am crying OUT yelling at the top of my lungs! WHAT DO I DO! What is the next step! I am just lost. You know I want to be mad at God but I can't. I can't find it in my heart to be mad! I know that He has shown me light in different times, and at this point I am waiting for that light to come on and guide me to the right way. I don't understand at all why, but I know that i will not let this get to me. I know that I will keep on being happy and joyful to people, cause what is going on in my life should not keep my from speaking LIFE! I don't want to speak death! So now i am pray, I am crying out, I am yelling, I am asking, I am waiting, I am ready for God to show me how to make the best out of everything right now. I am not sure how to react! I am not sure of what to do, I am not sure what to say. I am ready God. I am standing here with arms wide open for you to help me help myself! So here I am not at the end of the road, walls broken down, arms open wide. God lead me...

Whats yet to come...

This is what we did in Overflow (worship) Thursday night! And this is what has been on my mind for alone time, and it has has been on my heart for sometime here it is......

God please do... We have spent time praising God for who He is and what He has done. over the next few minutes we are going to spend some time asking God to help us. Use this paper to journal your request to God. Don't be afraid to be honest with God. Speak openly to Him about what you are concerned about. Ask Him to come and make a difference in your life......

God,
You are more then great! You have given more then I need but God i am scared, I am scared of what is next for me! I feel as if you have called me somewhere but I am scared; I am scared of what will happen and being alone! I feel as if you have pushed me to go to MHC, and you have placed the right people into my life for this next step! But I am crying out to you , help me overcome this, God I don't put this in your hand, I walk beside you with this I want to see your greatness happen in my life by me helping myself with digging deep into your word! God I feel as if you have put this on me, and it is time for me to pick up my cross and to follow you, and follow what you have planned for me, you are great and i know i am ready to go, go where you have called me to be.