Overtime!

I don't care what the world throws at me now,

It's gonna be alright.

One thing that i am trying to teach myself is that this world will throw so much at me, and that i need to be ready for everything that is thrown my way... Well I have been searching into Gods world, and the funny thing is that I am starting to understand that i shouldn't care. I know that i am yelling out the song Salvation Is Here.... I don't care what the world throws at me now, Its gonna be alright... I shouldn't care what other people think i shouldn't care what other people say, but as a human i have times where i say i don't care and that i will not care, but then there are those times were i care, and i just let it get to me so bad! I let it get under my skin and it is just under there and i cant stop thinking about it. Those are the times that i forget about how great God is and how much he has done for me!

One thing i am trying to teach myself is to learn to take in and not give out, I am trying to teach myself that i need to able to just take in and let it be. I guess i am can say that i will do anything for anybody, esp if i can help. I am willing to do whatever ask if i can help. The only things is that i feel as if i am being ran over by some people and i don't like that. I don't like the fact that i am able to give my all to and then once i do it i am given a negative reaction. I guess what i am getting at is that i am trying to teach myself that God is great, and that i need to learn that if i give it my all and i do get a negative reaction i need to let it be cause God has shown me that no matter the reaction i shouldn't have to worry about what someone thinks, better yet how they come off to the help....(i think i may have just lost my self in that last paragraph)

If you may not know i have been busy busy busy. I am not going to lie i love it i love being busy it has given me joy, it has mad me happy. but the most important part of my being busy is the fact that i have been able to build relationship. You know i am not talking about just dating i am talking about relationships that are friendships i have been trying to get to know different people and see the parts of life that they have come from. I have loved it thus far. Getting to know different people getting to hear different crazy but funny stories. Building these relationships has given me joy in my busy busy busy times, cause i think that, that is what keeps me going, knowing that i can build relationships with people and they will show me how great God is, and how they have been through different things in life. It just shows me How great our God really is!

I guess this blogging is just somethings that i have been thinking about over time, there is a lot more that i would love to write about but as of right now i am going to go to bed.(what the funny thing is that i will find something else to do and not go to bed)

A blog from … the phone.

My pray...

"Everything I once held dear, I count it all as lost..."

I want to be able to take everything I have on my heart and be able to give it all up and be able to say that God you alone are all I need! I want to cry that out! I am one who wants to take it all and do it myselft. I want now be able to say that I am not worshping anything else or anyone else...

"Leld me to the cross where your..."

Surrender

Guess sometime i go running around not knowing, missing out on understanding. I feel as if something is in font of my face, and i am not seeing it. I feel as if God is in front of me with something in my face saying here is the RED FLAG take what i am calling you to do. maybe i am to busy and going and going and missing out on the understanding, i feel as if everthing is good, and i am calling out to God at all times no matter what, and i know that God has a plan and i have been jumping into His word, over and over and over, but i feel like there is something more, i feel like that RED FLAG is up and i feel like i need my WHITE FLAG up saying i give up i give it all up, i will keep going head strong in Your word Lord, but at this point i am ready for what you have for me, i just hope that i am not stoping what should be coming in! I dont want to interfer with what God has plan i want to be able to go alone with it! I guess in the pass i may have missed out on things, i may have miss things that i didnt even know was there. But i am at a understanding now I am able to put my WHITE FLAG up and surrender!

DONT FORGET TO MUTE THE MUSIC ON THE LEFT!!!!

Understanding!!!

I guess now my days are busy busy i dont understand why i still have that feeling that something is missing. I feel as if i am missing out on something good, i am not sure these days of what is going on sometimes, i am on the run so much i dont know what is going on sometimes. I guess i need to be able to jsut stop and breathe and pick up everthing around me and have an understanding of what i am doing and why. I find myself a lot these days saying thank you God for this, Thank you so much for everything, I find myself talking to God on how greatful i am to have Him in my life, how even though i may be doing something i dont want to do i find myself turning to God and saying You alone oh God are amazing! Even though i know God is there and i know He is listen i still feel as if i am missing out on something i dont understand what it is i am not sure if i am doing something wrong or not, I am not sure if i need to be doing something more, or if i should just go with it, cause like i said before "even i dont know where the path leads" I guess now i am asking for an understanding, but i now i am able to say i am willing to go with that understanding i am able to wait for it cause i know that the old me would have went crazy wanting to know what the understanding is and not wanting to wait. I know that there is a plan and i can do nothing but wait it out, and i am so willing to wait it out cause i know that God has a plan no matter what it is i know that there will be a reason for the plan, I guess that is early said now then it will be when it happens, i am just hoping that i will be able to say that when the understanding comes and maybe goes....