Can't do it alone!

You know someone once told me ...I believe that most of us are motivated by not wanting to feel bad or to hurt. We are told it makes us stronger, yet we try and try to make those bad feelings end...

This is true; I am motivated to not feel bad, or to want to hurt. But I have been trying to make these bad feelings end! I am been trying to make them stop, but yep not luck at all! I guess I have done everything I know to do.

Then I was told this ....I find it more helpful to let myself go through the hurt....

This I don’t get, well let me say that I get it, I just don’t understand why I want to let myself hurt. I don’t understand why I want to let myself keep going through the same thing day by day. I don’t get it at all, but I guess when there is nothing that you can do about it, and then you have to just sit back and go with it. Even if it hurts so bad that you don’t even see why you bother anymore. I guess, well I don’t guess I know, that I am at that point where there is nothing that I can do at all.

Also was told this......I have missed something. I have missed the gift that is being offered in that situation....Then I can say, oh, thanks for the gift, God, sorry I missed it what is it.....

I get so mad at God when I am hurt sometime, other times am able to stop and just say "God this is all for a reason and I am going to go with what you say is best for me and let you take me" When I don’t say that I am missing out on what God is trying to show me. I guess now I am going to have to go with the hut and wait till I am able to say God thank you for the gift. I know that will be saying that cause I know that He will show me something and show me something great.
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The days keep passing but I am not even ready for anything! I am ready for God to put all this together and ready for things to be back to the way they were. But you know I am going to keep my faith in God and I am going to keep trying to understand what He wants me to do with this. I am ready now for You move me. But yet I am ready for You to rebuild me and make me strong and let me get over this. I am ready for You to help. I am ready for You God to speak to me know! Help me get over this; I know I can’t do it alone!

"for i dont know where the path leads"