The Stool Skit

Strong < Weak

You know we all have times when we are at our lows. We all think that we are strong were we dont't have to worry about them, we say "its ok i can handle this" or I have found myself saying that there are people that have it worse then me. Yeah there are people that have it worse them me. Now dont get me wrong, i am not saying that i have it great, i dont take what i have for granted i was raise to think like that. As i tell myself that there are people worse off them me i let things go. This time it didnt work. I feel as if everything i let go is coming back to hunt me. The first think i try to hide behind is my Leadership. I am fast to tell myself that since i am a leader i need to stand strong. I need to set an example for other. I need to cheer people up, i need to do what is write as a leader. But i cant keep hiding behind that. I have to learn that just because i am a leader doesnt mean that i can hide all my feeling. I think it is great for a leader to set an example for people. I think i have finally taken it to far. I think i am now quick to hide behind my leadership, you know what i know that i am quick to hide behind it. I guess that all that goes on in my life has to come out once. There has to be a time where i am able to just stop and vent! Vent is a good word for it, a time where i can just let everything out! There is so much that goes on in my life i am just not stopping and focusing on it, instead i am letting it go as i go on and try my hardest to put joy in other life, i am not stopping and looking at what is going on in my life! Even though i will never put myself first i guess sometime i need to put myself somewhere...

I am human too!

You know i can't change the world! I can't change who people are, i can do none of that! But oh i want to! There are times when i am just wanting to stop time, and fix the current issue, but yep i CAN'T! There are things i see people do that i can't stop nor tell them what to do! When it is all said and done there is nothing i can do at all! cause I CAN'T! But i want to be to speak life. I am not sure what it is that God is calling me to do at all! But i do know that i am not going to let it stop me now! I want to take my life and make it all that i can. I want to be able to us myself as a leader to lead to places that are unknown, where people will stop following and make their own path. I want to make the most of what i have but yet i can't do it alone.... Even when i am down and out, or just out right sad, or having a bad day i somehow have to tell myself to just stop and think how am i going to make the most out of this! Even though it is so hard! I have to just stop! but i guess sometimes just stopping doesn't help...