Text msg from God!

(it is late and i am so sleepy but i just really was thinking about this today and wanted to write about it, and if ya don't understand umm well see oh well ha ha jk jk sorry)


It's funny how when the phone rings we answer not knowing who it is, it could be anyone wanting anything... -The Caller (Phone Booth)


OK this quote may be creepy cause the man from Phone Booth said it and he was really creepy, but what i am getting at is that he telling the truth, cause i answer the phone sometimes and i don't have a clue who it is calling, but yet i still answer. Why is it that we can answer a phone for people we don't know calling and yet when someone we know calls we don't even pick up the phone cause we don't want to talk to them i don't understand that sometimes, plus i do it sometimes! Also another thing i am getting at is that this is how i was with God at one point!

I guess I can take this back to high school day; it was like God was telling that i was doing wrong through the outcome of a lot of the things that i was doing. In high school i just tried to keep to my self and friends i guess i can say for the beginning of the the time. But i notice now by thinking back on time that i could have been doing better, i could have spent time with God rather then say I did. I guess for some people in high school it is like drinking i mean they know that it is against the law, but hey they still do it, i guess the thing that just makes me mad is the things that are done with drunken thoughts, but in Sunday school the Sunday school teacher is teaching that it is not good to drink at all, but yet teens still do it. Just like that phone call from a number not know. I see this quote as....

It is funny how when God is calling us to do something we don't jump, but when we get a text MSG we race to find the phone not knowing what the MSG has to tell, it could be anything, but the MSG from God is one thing and one thing only. ETERNITY -Brandon Hunter

But the funny part is that God will break us no matter what! He will stop our world and turn it upside down! The first thing that we as people do is go running right back to Him and we call out His name! Pray, pray, pray and keep praying. Yet why is it that we as people will put things above God! WHY. Why is it that people will not serve God till they need time!

One Year!

(This is the same blog that i wrote for my school blog) (http://smcstudentblogs.blogspot.com/)


One Year!That is all it took for me to be done with my first year of college. One year! That is all it took for me to make new and great friends. One year! That is all it took for me to find new hobbies. One year! That is all it took for me to find myself. One year! That is all it took for God to break me.


Coming to college was something that I was ready for, I mean who is not ready to go to college? Once everything started and I got used to all of the great things college brought to me, I began to forget what I really lived for. In the beginning of my freshman year, I was scared. I didn't know anyone and was new to everything. The first thing I did was ask God, "is this where you want me to be?" I didn't understand what God was doing in my life. I didn't know if God had put me in the right place or not.


As I went on asking God to somehow show me if this was the right place, He did better. He showed me that he will place me where He feels is best, and that He has a plan for me and that I need to trust in Him, because He will not lead me to the wrong path. There is one quote that I just heard that goes right with this point of my life.“I tend to live the way I drive. I want to get from point A to point B in the shortest amount of time and by the easiest route possible. But I’ve come to realize that getting where God wants me to go isn’t nearly as important as becoming who God wants me to be in the process. And God seems to be far less concerned with where I’m going than with who I’m becoming."--Mark Batterson


I know that I was living life in the fast lane. I was too busy worrying about other things and making more time for things that could wait rather than making time for God. The time I did spend with God I was asking Him what it was that He wanted from me. But as Mark Batterson puts it, where God wants me to go isn't nearly as important as becoming who God wants me to be in the process. If I would have seen this quote some months ago, I know that I would be closer to God. The course God has taken me on over the past year has put me in a spot that I would not trade for the world. This year, I have never felt so close to God. Out of all the things that have happened this year, and all of the homework and all of the extracurricular activities I have participated in, I have come to realize that God is bigger than anything that I do, and that I want to live for him more and more every day.


Over a year, I have completed college courses. Over a year, I have lost my best friend due to moving of schools. Over a year, I have had to step up to do things that I would have never done one year ago. Over a year, I have gotten to know a God who tells the wind when to blow. Over a year God, has opened a book for me that challenges me to live and not to worry.

"Life is made up of years that mean nothing and moments that mean it all. "

"And if you were to say 'come with me', even now I might go."

I didnt feel like writing so i just did this, it is like postsecret.
(Postsecret is where people write there secrets on a post card
and then send them into this man, and he post them on a blog,
but he has like 4 or 5books out with them in it)
(http://postsecret.blogspot.com/)

Just thoughts

Just some things.....

1. Why is it that when people break up that somehow one is not over the other, i guess i cant really say anything cause i never been in love. But what about when one is mean and hurting the other and yet one is not able to leave? Why is it that they are not able to let go. What is it that the one being hurt and putting all they have into the relationship want to stay. Why is it that they running back to it after all the fights.
   
   
2. I am one to call myself a christian i will stand to that and say it. I am proud of it. I know that God, and i have a relationship with him. But here is the thing. As a christian i should be able to accept everyone. But why is it that many christian are not able to accept everyone. I was having a talk with someone and this came up and i was not sure of what to say. I was just lost for words. The topic came up on night at dinner it was a group of us, and one topic that really stood out was gay people. I believe that it is something that you choose and you not born to like the same sex but that is just me. But some of my friend believe that you are born to like the same sex. I understand that we believe different things. Gods word tell us to hate no one, and when you say hate you can say it an many different way no matter what why you say it you are saying hate. When we dont accept people we are disliking them, another way to say hate. Why is it that somepeople cant get over themselves and be open minded cause God doesnt want us to hate anyone. Even tho i do understand we are all human.
   
   
3. I am one that i have plans to wait. I dont plan at anytime to just change my mind. I know that I have made a promise that i will not break! I know that i will not be having sex at anytime soon. I think that there is nothing wrong with waiting. But that is just me. I know that this is something that i has choosen to do. I believe very strong that God has said sex is something that should be shared with someone we love, and are married too. Some people ask would you marry someone who has had sex. I would have to say that i want to marry someone that I have to find God before I find there heart.
   
   
4. I sometimes shock people i guess i can say. I once played this game called Never have I Ever. I won all 3 times i played we played wit out hands so there was no drinking. but would have to say that i have never been more shocked in my life about the things that i do and i have not done. But i would have to say that i am proud because i have made the choose and i have not changed my mind. But i just want to know why is it that more and more young people are doing more things then i have done in my lifetime.
   
   
5. Something i dont understand and i dont like talking about is death, I dont understand it i dont get why God would take the ones we love away. I dont get it but when i think about it i think about how when our phyical body is gone here from earth, we are in heaven with Christ and that is great thing! But one thing i have a promble with is taking to people about it. I guess one thing i am going to do is try and find out more and so i will be able to know what to do in those times!
   
   
6. If you dont know me and your reading this i was just voted to be my College Student Body President. Yeah great honor! BUT here is the thing. I am scared out of my mind. I am not sure what to do, i have never done anything this big, i am not sure if i am ready for it. I have prayed about it none stop. I cant believe that i won. It was something i really wanted i ran against some great guys. When i find myself praying and asking God what do, i find myself with the outcome of this is what God is doing He is making me into the person that he has planed me to be! I know that i am more then ready. I am ready to just break down the walls that I have around me that are making me shy, the same ones that are not letting me give it my all. I am ready... So i think... but i know God has a plan...
   
   
7. (I guess this kinda and some kind of way can go with number one, but i dont really think so) Losing people what is it so hard. Why is it when we are in great standing with friends and having a great time, that somehow it is ended. Sometimes with families moving, or jobs moving someone, or with school there going off to different school. No mater what it is there is someway that we lose people. Why cant we be strong and keep going with life. I know i cant be strong at all. Even when i know there may be a point were i may end up with those people again. i still cant strong. I guess this kind of goes with a quote that i posted when i was in a low point of the end of the school year. "Life doesn't give you the people you want. It gives you the people you need. To help you. To hurt you. To love you. To leave you. & To make you into the person you were ment to be." I love that quote cause it is so true! But it the hurt part kinda stands out for me. But it really does make you into the person you were ment to be. it makes you think about life, it makes you strong, and make you many more things. But the only thing is "Goodbyes always hurt whether it's the right thing to do or not" The only thing i can say to is to try to find the good in it. I tried to find the good in the worry and i found my self getting really close to God, I can also say find something to do. I found something to do and i found myself LOVING tennis! I am going to stop on this one cause i can go on an on about this cause i know that it has hit close to home! but i will end on this note find someone to talk to if you find yourself losing a friend do to a move or because of some reason. Take to some i talk to a friend ashley and she told me to talk to someone i look up to so i am tell you talk to someone you look up to know that they will not led you to the wrong place. I know that Kim Day didnt let me to the wrong path. Ok that is all....
   
   
8. I write a blog about I wants... and i just looked at it and i want to know why i stared out with "I want to be loved. I want to find someone to love. i want someone who understands me. I want someone that I will be able to call and tell them that they mean the world to me." Ya know i have been thinking for some weeks now and i have been thinking why am i not dating someone. I guess now i have come to the understand that i dont care anymore. I guess i can say that if God puts that someone in my life i want Him to put someone who understands me, someone i am about to talk to about anything, someone i am about to just look at i know that they like me for who i am, someone who understand God and ya know if He puts someone who is none of those things i am not sure what i would do. but i do know that i am all His, and that i if he does i know it is my job to bring them close to God, to try atleast. God works in different ways
   
   
9. This is one that i may get hit for. but i am going to do it. Why do people do dumb things. ( I am not judging at all cause i do dumb things all so, if you know me, oh you know i do) but what i am getting at this one is why is it if you know something is going to make you do something that is dumb, or could hurt you or someone around you why do it. lets say dranking, dont get me wrong i am not judging anyone. but why is it that a 13year old drinks, better yet a 18year old. Why is it that the reason is because everyone else is doing. I am not going to ask the dumb question if someone jumps off a bridge does that mean you are going to up. i just want to know why is it that just because other people are doing it, why does that make it ok for you to do it. ahh this just under my skin so bad i am not sure what to even say!
   
   
10. I was reading on my facebook and i say ..."I walk by Faith not seeing!" I and that is one thing i have not been working on. I guess i should be walking by faith even when i can not see. I should trust the unseen!
    
    

This is just random things that have been going through my head at 4 in the am and when i work up at 1! I dont even know if it make since or not!

"Am i becoming who God wants me to be?"

“I tend to live the way I drive. I want to get from point A to point B in the shortest amount of time and by the easiest route possible. But I’ve come to realize that getting where God wants me to go isn’t nearly as important as becoming who God wants me to be in the process. And God seems to be far less concerned with where I’m going than with who I’m becoming."-Mark Batterson

I tend to also do this, i tend to want be done with things and just be at a good point of my life, but yet i want to not do any work. The only thing i am thinking is this where i should be alot. I am always asking God, is this where u want me in life, is there where you have called me to be. Should i be here or should i be somewhere else. The true thing is that i am wrong! God has called me to all kinds of places in this world. Yet there may be one place that i should be it will come. I guess the one thing that i should be focus on in life is "Am i becoming who God wants me to be?" Now some of the things i ask myself are...
Am i becoming a Godly man as i have been told to
Am i on the path that will led me to God
W.W.J.D
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I was watching Roseanne tonight and I have seen this one show for like the 3rd time tonight and I really like it, and when it comes on I always remember this one part the part were Darlene reads her poem i have post it it below, and there is one part that really just sticks out to me!

To whom it concerns, Darlene's work will be late,

it fell on her pancakes and stuck to her plate...

To whom it concerns, my ma made me write this,

and I'm just her kid, so how could I fight this...

To whom it concerns, I lost my assignment,

maybe I'll get lucky, solitary confinement...

To whom it concerns, Darlene's great with the ball,

but guys don't watch tomboys when they're cruising the hall...

To whom it concerns, I just turned thirteen,

too short to be quarterback, too plain to be queen...

To whom it concerns, I'm not made of steel,

when I get blindsided my pain is quite real...

I don't mean to squawk, but it really burns...

I just thought I'd mention it, to whom it concerns...

To whom it concerns, I'm not made of steel, when I get blindsided my pain is quite real... this part just stands out I think that it is the part that she is trying to get across out of the poem. I was thinking about it once she said it, To whom it concerns, I'm not made of steel, Even though many people go through life and think that they are made of steel they are not. I do it sometimes. I go through life like i can handle just about anything. NOT EVERYTHING CAUSE I KNOW I CANT! but there are somethings that in life that I just think i can handle and I just go one with the throught that I am able to handle this and really when it is all said and done I cant at all. It is sometime things were I am just a little fish and a small pond and think i can be the big fish that saves the day and the sad part is that i am the smallest fish in the the sea. But once I think about it and I come to the point were I know I am hopeless, i get blindsided as the poem puts it. Then i am shown that my pain is real! Ya know this poem I think is made to make a point to someone but i kinda have taken it and changed it up to show myself that i am not made of steel there are things in this world that are way bigger then me. I guess i made this a way to show myself that i should stop trying so hard to be like, and stop trying to fit in, and just go with the flow sometimes cause L.I.F.E is like a game, game that is hard to play sometimes but it is life. And i am told to live it and live it abundantly! and I will for Him!(John 10:10)