i can say that i took it harder then i thought i would! I can not believe that it is over and i hate it i am trying to look for joy in this. I understand it is life but why does this have to happen. You know sometimes i get mad at God for things like this but not this time! i am just mad right now i can not believe i have lost a Best Friend! I dont like it at all! It is like there is something missing in my life and there is nothing i can do about it!

When i was told goodbye, i was trying to find the good in it, but then ya know it was that going to happen at one point but that is ok, cause i will not let it be the end! One it is goodbye it started to rain and ya know what it was like i could not hold it, back! but ya know what i lost it and i am proud to say that i can be human and cry. just cry and not stop! I guess that is just a part of life, and i really hope i can get to the understanding that it is not over just yet, i know that th first days will be hard to get over but that is ok cause i know that God has made me strong to understand that i can get through this! I stood in the rain and just let it rain right on me it, the rain came harder and harder and i just stood there! I am going to miss my bud! I can say that things will never be the same i have to come to the understanding that i will have to make thing workout. I will miss you Drew! Love ya Bud!
"Life DOESN'T give you the people you WANT. It GIVES you the people you NEED. To HELP you. To HURT you. To ♥ you. To LEAVE you. & To MAKE you into the person you were MEANT to be."

Untill later.....