Just thoughts

Just some things.....

1. Why is it that when people break up that somehow one is not over the other, i guess i cant really say anything cause i never been in love. But what about when one is mean and hurting the other and yet one is not able to leave? Why is it that they are not able to let go. What is it that the one being hurt and putting all they have into the relationship want to stay. Why is it that they running back to it after all the fights.
   
   
2. I am one to call myself a christian i will stand to that and say it. I am proud of it. I know that God, and i have a relationship with him. But here is the thing. As a christian i should be able to accept everyone. But why is it that many christian are not able to accept everyone. I was having a talk with someone and this came up and i was not sure of what to say. I was just lost for words. The topic came up on night at dinner it was a group of us, and one topic that really stood out was gay people. I believe that it is something that you choose and you not born to like the same sex but that is just me. But some of my friend believe that you are born to like the same sex. I understand that we believe different things. Gods word tell us to hate no one, and when you say hate you can say it an many different way no matter what why you say it you are saying hate. When we dont accept people we are disliking them, another way to say hate. Why is it that somepeople cant get over themselves and be open minded cause God doesnt want us to hate anyone. Even tho i do understand we are all human.
   
   
3. I am one that i have plans to wait. I dont plan at anytime to just change my mind. I know that I have made a promise that i will not break! I know that i will not be having sex at anytime soon. I think that there is nothing wrong with waiting. But that is just me. I know that this is something that i has choosen to do. I believe very strong that God has said sex is something that should be shared with someone we love, and are married too. Some people ask would you marry someone who has had sex. I would have to say that i want to marry someone that I have to find God before I find there heart.
   
   
4. I sometimes shock people i guess i can say. I once played this game called Never have I Ever. I won all 3 times i played we played wit out hands so there was no drinking. but would have to say that i have never been more shocked in my life about the things that i do and i have not done. But i would have to say that i am proud because i have made the choose and i have not changed my mind. But i just want to know why is it that more and more young people are doing more things then i have done in my lifetime.
   
   
5. Something i dont understand and i dont like talking about is death, I dont understand it i dont get why God would take the ones we love away. I dont get it but when i think about it i think about how when our phyical body is gone here from earth, we are in heaven with Christ and that is great thing! But one thing i have a promble with is taking to people about it. I guess one thing i am going to do is try and find out more and so i will be able to know what to do in those times!
   
   
6. If you dont know me and your reading this i was just voted to be my College Student Body President. Yeah great honor! BUT here is the thing. I am scared out of my mind. I am not sure what to do, i have never done anything this big, i am not sure if i am ready for it. I have prayed about it none stop. I cant believe that i won. It was something i really wanted i ran against some great guys. When i find myself praying and asking God what do, i find myself with the outcome of this is what God is doing He is making me into the person that he has planed me to be! I know that i am more then ready. I am ready to just break down the walls that I have around me that are making me shy, the same ones that are not letting me give it my all. I am ready... So i think... but i know God has a plan...
   
   
7. (I guess this kinda and some kind of way can go with number one, but i dont really think so) Losing people what is it so hard. Why is it when we are in great standing with friends and having a great time, that somehow it is ended. Sometimes with families moving, or jobs moving someone, or with school there going off to different school. No mater what it is there is someway that we lose people. Why cant we be strong and keep going with life. I know i cant be strong at all. Even when i know there may be a point were i may end up with those people again. i still cant strong. I guess this kind of goes with a quote that i posted when i was in a low point of the end of the school year. "Life doesn't give you the people you want. It gives you the people you need. To help you. To hurt you. To love you. To leave you. & To make you into the person you were ment to be." I love that quote cause it is so true! But it the hurt part kinda stands out for me. But it really does make you into the person you were ment to be. it makes you think about life, it makes you strong, and make you many more things. But the only thing is "Goodbyes always hurt whether it's the right thing to do or not" The only thing i can say to is to try to find the good in it. I tried to find the good in the worry and i found my self getting really close to God, I can also say find something to do. I found something to do and i found myself LOVING tennis! I am going to stop on this one cause i can go on an on about this cause i know that it has hit close to home! but i will end on this note find someone to talk to if you find yourself losing a friend do to a move or because of some reason. Take to some i talk to a friend ashley and she told me to talk to someone i look up to so i am tell you talk to someone you look up to know that they will not led you to the wrong place. I know that Kim Day didnt let me to the wrong path. Ok that is all....
   
   
8. I write a blog about I wants... and i just looked at it and i want to know why i stared out with "I want to be loved. I want to find someone to love. i want someone who understands me. I want someone that I will be able to call and tell them that they mean the world to me." Ya know i have been thinking for some weeks now and i have been thinking why am i not dating someone. I guess now i have come to the understand that i dont care anymore. I guess i can say that if God puts that someone in my life i want Him to put someone who understands me, someone i am about to talk to about anything, someone i am about to just look at i know that they like me for who i am, someone who understand God and ya know if He puts someone who is none of those things i am not sure what i would do. but i do know that i am all His, and that i if he does i know it is my job to bring them close to God, to try atleast. God works in different ways
   
   
9. This is one that i may get hit for. but i am going to do it. Why do people do dumb things. ( I am not judging at all cause i do dumb things all so, if you know me, oh you know i do) but what i am getting at this one is why is it if you know something is going to make you do something that is dumb, or could hurt you or someone around you why do it. lets say dranking, dont get me wrong i am not judging anyone. but why is it that a 13year old drinks, better yet a 18year old. Why is it that the reason is because everyone else is doing. I am not going to ask the dumb question if someone jumps off a bridge does that mean you are going to up. i just want to know why is it that just because other people are doing it, why does that make it ok for you to do it. ahh this just under my skin so bad i am not sure what to even say!
   
   
10. I was reading on my facebook and i say ..."I walk by Faith not seeing!" I and that is one thing i have not been working on. I guess i should be walking by faith even when i can not see. I should trust the unseen!
    
    

This is just random things that have been going through my head at 4 in the am and when i work up at 1! I dont even know if it make since or not!